Yesterday was a tough day…on the inside.
On the outside everything was fine. No injury, no sickness, no dilemma or circumstance was evident…
Yet, on the inside something was churning.
I don’t like to admit it, but I wasn’t ok. And there really wasn’t a reason.
So this morning, as the churning has settled and my thoughts and feelings are peaceful, I’m asking myself what in the world was that all about?
I’m reaching for answers and reasons…was I just tired? emotional? did I eat something strange? am I a flat out wierd-o?
But then I realized, you know, God made a whole lot of things that change from day to day. The sky looks different everyday, the ocean looks different everyday, the weather is different from day to day. So maybe he made me like the sea. Maybe I’m not the rocky coast, or the mountain’s peak, or the Sequoya tree. Maybe I’m the wildflower be-bopping in the breeze. Maybe the feelings are there because God put them there. Maybe my emotions are constantly shifting so that I can realize my need for a never-changing God.
So I’m tip-toe typing today on the blog trusting that whomever needs to find it will find it. I’m not writing about all this because I have a “3 step plan for the emotional soul…”
Rather, I thought I’d just share that I find myself floundering at an emotional level and I thought there might be a few other souls out there who could relate. Maybe it is just a season we are going through, maybe there is some biological, physical, circustancial reason for our emotions, but I just wanted to be a voice in the churning to say:
- It’s ok.
- God is not changing.
Truth to cling to: