Archives for April 2017

Dear Younger Me…the new mom…yeah you, trying so hard to be a good mama…

I just wanted to write you a note to say YOU ARE DOING SUCH A GOOD JOB!

Seriously, I know you are worried you are getting it all wrong, but really I know you are worried about what other people think. You see in your mind, the jury is still out on whether you are “a good mom” or not. Let me let you in on a secret. No one will EVER be able to tell for sure if you are a good mom by what they see you doing. It is the stuff that you do that no one sees that matters. The big embarrassing tantrum in the grocery store…the mismatched socks…the broken arm…the messy van…the spit up on your shirt…those are NOT the markers that define your mothering. No, ma’am. “Good Mom” is not a badge you earn…rather, it is the sacrifice you embrace. It is the nighttime waking, laundry folding, grocery shopping, small bite cutting, pediatrician calling, cool-headed deep breathing, stroller pushing, band-aid sticking, book reading, rocking chair rocking, throw up cleaning, Tylenol measuring, shoe hunting, crumb sweeping, eyes-in-the-back of your head watching, timeout giving, bedtime snuggling, sandwich crust cutting, nose wiping, toenail clipping, Jesus-help-me praying that you do over and over and over.

And don’t you for one second think it is a checklist to do ALL THE THINGS perfectly…because that is simply impossible. The goal is not perfection…the goal is not to arrive.

Instead, think of each little task as a tiny little drop in a very big tank…It is slow. You think it isn’t making any difference, but I promise, you will be amazed at how it all adds up.

And goodness, you will mess up. A lot. But just say you are sorry. Pray. Let it change you. And press on. Drop by drop. Because even “good mamas” can’t change their kid’s hearts. Let the Holy Spirit do in your kids what only He can.

So you just keep drip-dropping behind the scenes, sacrificially. It won’t always be fun, but it always matters. And when your kids get older, some things will get easier, but some things get harder. You will gain confidence, but you will always need reminders not to worry about what others think. It only matters what your sweet Jesus thinks of you. Your worth is not defined by what you do– only by what He has done for you, and He is singing over you. He never leaves you. He picks you up when you fall. He wakes you up each morning with joy. He delights in you, so delight in him. Look for him in it all.

Singing His Grace,

Jess

 

Today, in my world…there are carry-on suitcases full of dirty clothes that still need to be unpacked from a quick trip to visit family. There are strings of plastic grass and chocolate wrappers strewn around my home. Beautiful Easter outfits are rolled up and stuffed in grocery bags that are still sitting in my mini-van. This rainy Monday morning couldn’t feel any more opposite to yesterday’s glorious Easter sunshine.

Perhaps you are looking around at your circumstances and feeling like Easter is already a distant reality, a yesterday event, a memory to be stored…or forgotten. Maybe yesterday was disappointing or difficult. Maybe you feel a little disconnected or numb in general about holidays.

I would be lying if I said that my Monday morning doesn’t seem, at first, to be totally disconnected from the reality that was/is Easter Sunday.

—

It has me wondering, how many people might be looking around at their Monday morning and thinking is Easter really even my “thing”? Does Easter really matter to me today? Who is Easter even for anyway?

Is it just for kids?
You know, fun games and hunts and sugar-levels spiking to the point of giddy energy.

Or is it for the religious?
The rule following, tradition-abiding folks.

Or is it for the families?
The ones who still like each other or at least who tolerate a (free) meal together occasionally.

Is it for the well-dressed?
The wrinkle-free, latest trend, matching pastel type people.

Or is it for the consumer, when sales are good and every store has something new to offer for springtime?

Maybe it is for the home improve-er?
The long weekend is perfect for heading to the hardware store to buy mulch and flowers or supplies for that spring project.

So who is Easter for then?

I believe that Easter is for the Monday mornings. It is for the broken hearted and the broken down. It is for the wound that won’t heal. It is for the body that is aging. It is for the tree whose leaves are diseased. It is for the dream unrealized. It is for the civil war-torn country. It for the runner whose strength is failing. It is for the ocean’s coast strewn with trash. It is for the childhood ended too early, the adulthood ended too soon, the elderly left alone. It is for the mundane and the tired, the down and depressed. It is for the hospital rooms and homeless dormitories. It is for battlefields and for the lecture halls. It is for the messy, the ruined, the forgotten. It is for all souls, and for all of creation.

Easter is for you and for me.

Easter is for anyone with bad news needing good news. It is for anything futile or broken needing a lasting fix. It is for anything tired longing for new strength.

Don’t be deceived about the reality of Easter…

Yesterday, the eggs were hunted, dyed, counted, stepped on, consumed, and cast aside….but, we don’t box up Easter until next year…we don’t cast it aside for another day. No, we hang every moment on the promise that is Easter. We view every circumstance in light of the good news that Jesus is the King of Kings, that Jesus is alive, and that Jesus is coming back to restore all things.

Everything finds its meaning in that reality. Even the meaningless, even when we can’t wrap our minds around it…we are free from the power of sin and death, and one day we will be free from the presence of sin and death.

So let our Monday, our mundane, and our miserable places be grounded in Jesus. Let us cling to the hope found only in Jesus. Even in the face of hardship and trial and pain and sorrow and whatever circumstance threatens our hope…we boast in what Jesus did for us. Easter is for you. Christ died. For you. Don’t let Monday squeeze out the miracle of Easter. Grasp it. Trust it. Trust Him.

Singing His grace,

Jess